“A shapeless piece of steel: that’s all I claim to be.
This hammer pounds to give me form, its flame it melts my dreams.
I glow with fire and fury as I’m twisted like a vine.
My final shape, my final form, I’m sure I’m bound to find.”

Tonight I picked up my guitar and starting playing through some stuff…somehow in my picking I began to play this song.

At the end of last year, I finally understood what Bebo was singing about. The anguish and confusion as you are broken and stretched; moulded into what you were meant to be was something I never really experienced. I still can’t listen to much Bebo, but this is one song I can truely identify with now and though I don’t think I’ve even listened to it in this past year I have played it on occasion, to remind myself that I’m not alone, and better things are to come.

This week has been filled with games programming and video editing (and not enough FET). These past three night’s I’ve been in bed at 4:30am, 5am and 3:30am - hopefully a little earlier tonight! Two of those nights I was in the lab working, and still didn’t manage to get very much done as it takes so long to find tutorials on the net and our course has not provided them. The ranting about the ridiculous make up of final year has been done so many times to so many people that I refuse to repeat it all again here.

On tuesday night the boys from Monkstown came over and we decided we’d make an impromptu video. Afterwards I went into the labs and edited it together (only to have to do it all again the next day - don’t ask!). If you’d like to the see the result, visit my design diary. All of this was completely improvised - hence the pauses and people talking over eachother - I think the boys did a great job under the circumstances!

title taken from “The Hammer Holds” by Bebo Norman